Creativity Block

CAMPBELL HARVEY

None of these thoughts are organized, and quite frankly I wouldn't read this page with any hope for inspiration.

Creativity block doesn't look the same for all but for me it looks ugly. I beat myself up when I can't make art everyday. Which is crazy, why I am expecting to be able to produce something artistic EVERYDAY? I follow so many people and just see all my friends doing cool shit that when I can't check the boxes on what needs to be done, I crumble. Every other aspect of my life the result of my time is measurable. I clock in at work and know exactly how many coins I will get from that shift. Spending an hour making something, I have no clue what I will accomplish, if I will be happy with it, or if I'll even keep it. My brain just works so weird because I can make a whole story in my head with so much lore and side quests, a story that has every moving piece finished in my head, but the words won't be written until I get out of this funk.

My creativity has always been my super power, so facing a depressive era in my life I feel like a bust. Like deadass watch Hasheem Thabeet highlights and your going to tell me that the Grizzles made the right decision? yea your fucking trippin bro. I feel like that at times. How do athletes do everything they can and just flop? Not being cocky but I feel like I will be the greatest creative to exist and the only thing stopping me is myself. Like if I just had $10k maybe I could take 8 months off of life and make every project that is sitting in my head right now come to life.

I take a lot of time off to focus on myself. I been a "brand" guy since 2017, and before that I had a startup shoe company in 2012. Fourteen year old me was probably the most ambitious dude on the planet. If I had the knowledge I have now I'd be on shark tank or something. I watch people do the shit I dream of so easily and it is crazy because the shit be so MID bro. Like I sound like a big ass hater but if you read my Notion app you would understand.

Okay I am getting really ahead of myself but like this is just a rough patch in my creative journey fr. Once I get out of this I want ya'll to stop asking me questions because I am tired of people not knowing what I am capable of, the genius of my work, or why I do what I do.